Where Do I Go Now?

Yes, that’s the exact question that I tend to ask myself every single day. “Where do I go now?…”  Sometimes, I know exactly what to do; where to go but there are times when, I do wonder what should I do? It bothers me especially when I don’t know where I’m heading with things cause I like to know where I’m going. I like to have a target, a plan because I hate feeling lost. I think no one likes it as well. But, there are times when feeling lost does feel good cause it’s like an adventure or a puzzle to solve and it does gives you a sense of excitement. Anyway, I think I just need to de-clutter my life starting with my room. It’s a little to chaotic even for my liking. I should get some rest now. Tomorrow’s another long day ahead. Good Night or should I say, Good Morning World!!

- whit3puppy

Is This D End or D Start To A New Beginning…?

2009 up to date has been a really wild and crazy ride for me with far too many ups and downs but, this is my life. I’m still happy to be breathing and laughing at my mistakes. One thing that I really admire about myself, is the capability to laugh at myself when I fall. That aside, I really think that love is tough. It’s tough on everyone actually. Love is not complicated as I am still a firm believer that the two individuals involved are the ones whom makes it complicated but, love is infact simple. True Love only happens when you’ve made up your mind and heart to let yourself fall in love and let the silly romantic doofus in yourself take off and blossom.

Anyway, ever wondered why even though love hurts so much but, yet we still let ourselves fall in love over and over again? Take the risk of putting ourselves out there? Well, to answer that… We, human beings all want to feel loved, cared for, we want to be understood, we want a hearing ear, we want a warm hug from someone that we trust and love once in awhile esp. when the world gets really tough on us,… we want someone that we can call our own soulmate, someone that we can come home to in the end.. That’s the reason no matter how painful love is, we still let ourselves fall just hoping that we’ll get loved back.

Anyway, enjoy the lyrics to the song I’m about to share. It’s called Goodbye by Amanda Perez. I would like to dedicate this to you. You know who you are. I love you. I will always love you.

Goodbye by Amanda Perez

[verse 1:]
Nobody knows what you’re going through
But I know this much is true
I need you in my life
I need you by my side
I wanna see your face
I needa hear your voice
And I know that if it’s meant
I’ll have no choice
But I don’t want…
I don’t wanna let you go…
‘Cause I know deep down in my heart
I feel it in my soul

[chorus:]
It’s gona be hard
God take my heart
‘Cause I don’t want it anyway
I don’t think that I can take
Feeling this hurt
I’m feeling the worst
Lord give me one more chance
Let me do all I can
‘Cause I don’t wanna say
Goodbye…

[verse 2:]
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
I wish that I can take the pain
This pain and suffering out of your life
Now I’m here in memories
Of how things how used to be
Can’t hold these tears from falling from my eyes
Can’t hold this hurting inside

[chorus:]
It’s gonna be hard
God take my heart
‘Cause I don’t want it anyway
I don’t think that I can take
Feeling this hurt
I’m feeling the worst
Lord give me one more chance
Let me do all I can
‘Cause I don’t wanna say
Goodbye…

[verse 3:]
Hold me close
Don’t let go
This can’t be
Please no
It’s not supposed to happen this way
You’re supposed to live to see many days
With all your laughs
And all your smiles
I swear the angels can hear you from many miles
In my dreams he tells me but I already know
I just don’t wanna let you go
It’s gonna be hard
It’s gonna be hard
But I don’t wanna let…
I don’t wanna let you go
‘Cause I don’t wanna say
Goodbye…
Love you mom

- whit3puppy

Training Day 1..

Good Evening,

Yeah.. Am at home resting now.. I had an exciting day down at the workshop today. Team Manager/Coach took me down to the open land for training today.. The afternoon started out normal but after 30mins or so, things started to rumble a lil as birds started flying out of the way when an Impreza started to roar and run around furiously, kicking up dust trails in the process.. Some sideways action took place as well.. It was scary at first but after getting the hang of how the mean machine handles, I picked up my phase and started buzzing through the open land a little more quicker and each time after getting some feedback and tips from my team manager/coach, I try to imply it. I succeeded at times and also failed some of the times but honestly, I really had so much fun at it.

A Happy Rally Driver in D Making..

Can you see how dusty my hair was? When I got home, I had to shampoo my hair twice.. LOL..

Sunny Day.. =)

- whit3puppy

I Would Like To Believe..

This is another Buble song that I love. It’s called Lost. Well, I would like to believe that I’m not lost and that I have someone that cares about me just like the song says. At this very moment in time, I’m at the crossroad in my life. I am alone as well. I still have a few true friends here and there but that’s about it. My only love at this very moment is my passion for motorsports and also my career. My family is still very important to me but recently, I’ve failed to be a good daughter due to my time planning and the constant issues in my life. I feel horrible about this and I’m making a point to improve at being a team player when it comes to this family. My cousin sister Ah Kee is getting married tomorrow and instead of being in Ipoh for her wedding, I’m here instead. My mum and dad text me a few hours ago and requested that I try to make a trip down for the wedding tomorrow. Part of me, feels like doing just that, making a trip there for the wedding but on the other hand, if I do that, I’d be missing my practice session at the workshop which will make my team manager very angry cause I did promise to be there. That’s the main problem with me, I just don’t have enough time for the things and task that I need to do even though, I’ve tried to balance them out. Also, a guy that dated me previously called me a workaholic.. Imagine that. Which I can’t agree with. I really don’t think I’m a workaholic. Well, atleast all this while but I’m not sure how things would be when I join the new co. soon.

Lost by Michael Buble Lyrics

Can’t believe it’s over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I’d only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
Then the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognize the girl you are today
And God I hope it’s not too late
It’s not too late
‘Cause you are not alone
I’m always there with you
And we’ll get lost together
‘Till the light comes pouring through
‘Cause when you feel like you’re done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you’re not lost
When your world’s crashing down
And you can’t bear the thought
I said, babe, you’re not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you’ve gone crazy
But you’re not
Things have seemed to change
There’s one thing that’s still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

‘Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we’ll get lost together
‘Till the light comes pouring through
‘Cause when you feel like you’re done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you’re not lost
When the world’s crashing down
And you can not bear to crawl
I said, baby, you’re not lost
I said, baby, you’re not lost
I said, baby, you’re not lost
I said, baby, you’re not lost

- whit3puppy

You Know You’re Bored When You Start Blog Surfing..

Yes, you know you’re dead bored when you have nothing to do and you start blog surfing just to see what others are writing about.. It’s quite motivating at times but it can be quite ironic as well.. esp. when you’re just surfing to checkout other blogers photos.. LOL.. What’s happening to us, actually me? I’m so embarrass of this. Yes, I admit. I sometimes blog surf a little just to see what’s happening in the world. I have to stop doing that. Btw, I’m working on a new photo-vid. Should be ready by this coming week I hope. I’m compiling the pics and doing the necessary film editing. I actually honestly love doing this. Editing vids/putting pics together. I can’t wait for this baby to be completed. I’ll upload and share when it’s ready.

- whit3puppy

I Need..

Goodbye Sunshine..

It’s time to bid goodbye to yesterday. It ain’t an easy task to do but it’s time to wake up to a new tomorrow. =) I’ll never forget the memories especially the good ones.

- whit3puppy

Introducing My Boyfriend..

Yes, I have a boyfriend and he’s soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo damn fine and muscular. I love him to bits. He’s really strong and he’s really super good looking. I only see him during the weekends or during events. He is Japanese and he has a really unique name which is Impreza. His name says it all, he impresses me all the time. =)

Subaru Impreza Wagon, my love.. =)

My team manager was the one that matched made me with him a year back… Thanks.. =)

- whit3puppy

Home by Michael Buble..

Home by Michael Buble Lyrics

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna come home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well, I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home…
I’m just too far
from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
That this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day
Has come and gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home…
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home

Let me go home…
It’ll all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

I’m really very exhausted. I just want to go home. Btw, this is my all time favourite song that means alot to me.

- whit3puppy

Meet Up, Dinner + Movie with Chester D Chef..

Chester and Mua just right before d movie started..

Chester D Chef and I met up for catching up, dinner plus movie which was really a last minute thing actually. We managed to get tickets for The Ugly Truth staring Katherine Heigl and Gerard Butler.. The movie was good I would have to say. Really hilarious and well, there’s a lot of truth in the whole “how a guy thinks about girl” and “what girls/women in general think of guys” scenario but it had a happy ending which was good of course.

A Good Laugh..

Shall We Dance? =)

It’s a romantic comedy btw. It’s the type of movie which you watch just to chill and relax the brain from a stressful day. It also makes you think about the whole relationship thing and about the person that you love. Okay. Enough of me rambling on about the movie. You should just go and watch it. =) Btw, dinner was awesome, we had sushi. Which of course is my favourite. Also, it was good to know that Chester got a new job and that he’s loving it.

- whit3puppy

New Hobbie or New Biz in The Making?

Lovely vibrant coloured beads..

I spent my Sunday evening at an art supply store in Gardens, Mid Valley and I loved it. It was my second visit to the store and I got myself a set of pliers and some lobster clasps. I’m really getting into the mood of making my own accessories/jewelry. You see, I’m quite picky when it comes to accessories, clothes and jewelry. So, after thinking about things, I think I might just have to make my own and maybe even make some nice pieces for friends and then if all goes well, maybe I can make it into a hobbie that will someday generate a small income in return. We’ll see what happens.. =)

- whit3puppy